February 2011
1 post
WatchBaby
December 2009
33 posts
I’m losing control. I keep doing it, but not anymore. I’m back, I’m totally 100% back. This is ridiculous, I made a promise to myself two and a half years ago. And I’m not giving up on myself. I will weight in the 130’s. I will.
I continually do this to myself. I eat so shitty like every four days. And it stresses me out. I’m going to get super serious again. I want to be thin. like in perfect shape and adorable. I’m going to do it. Tomorrow is a new day. I will study, eat healthy, do weights and the elliptical and just be healthy and feel good. I also bought more clothes. Oh yeah, I did.
“I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. They are the only thing...”
– A Beautiful Revolution (via quotewhore)
“It’s there, I know it is, because when I look at you, I can feel it. And-and I...”
– Finding Nemo (via quotewhore)
“I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly...”
– The Holiday (via quotewhore)
I feel like it’s a good sign that Cory can’t wait to see me in thirteen days so he is driving up tonight. :]
“You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall...”
– Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist (via quotewhore)
“Sometimes I think I am out of my league, and then sometimes I think I can dream....”
– Hellogoodbye (via quotewhore)
13 days
until I get to see Cory. 13 days has never seemed this long.
“Take one breath and then take another. Repeat these simple steps until you feel...”
– Bright Eyes (via quotewhore)
I get to go home tomorrow! I’m so excited. I love my bed, and my family, and my dogs, and christmas parties andddd I get to see Cory. What a good weekend it will be before I will be so stressed with finals.
“This is probably the best, not to mention the worst idea.”
I heard back from him, he’s calling me after work tonight.
I literally cannot stop thinking about Cory. I’m driving myself insane. I didn’t hear from him all yesterday and I even texted him today at like 12 and still haven’t heard back. I know he works a lot, so i’ll just keep thinking he’s at work. Or maybe he’s already over me. Maybe I did something wrong. I always mess everything up.
“There are two kinds of love…in the safe kind you look for someone who’s exactly...”
– Jodi Picoult (via quotewhore)
November 2009
21 posts
“But there once was a time when you were the one.
You were the blue of the sky,...”
Away from everything
I can’t stop thinking about Cory. This is not okay, I need to stay focused because finals are coming up, but I can’t. I just want to see him. He sent me a text that said ‘So what does it mean to comb out a hickey? I’ve been thinking about it all day!’ I sent him one back telling him what combing out a hickey meant and I ended with ‘Aww, you’ve been...
Some people say they eat their feelings. the fog outside my window is devouring my neighbors’ houses.
He’s swallowing the nearby forest, nothing goes untouched.
the mailboxes and driveways, They’re all gone.
I want him to seep through my walls and eat me alive. but that’s selfish, and he’s the one having a bad day.
“Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did.”
Boy oh boy
So last night, work sucked, I was stuck there forever serving a table. I didn’t get out until 11 but Cory was already home and had showered so it was fine. I was nervous my whole way over, which is usual for me. When I finally got there we were just talking and watching a movie and then I started talking about how he’s chicken shit which goes back wayyyy far for us. So as we are...
Just got done hanging out with Cory. I got there at like 1130, its four am now. Details tomorrow, or uh, today.
Just tell me you love me it makes me feel alive.
“And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like...”
– Dashboard Confessional
“I’m not some car you can just fix up, I’m never going to run right.”
– Bella.